A few nights ago, I spent the evening with an old friend. I've known Justin since sixth grade. Our parents were really close friends so it worked out great for us. Ever since I can remember Justin has had a passion for cooking. When he invited me over for 'Soul-Food Night', I knew it was going to be great. He prepared an incredible amount of food! We had home-made fried chicken, green bean casserole, mashed potato's, rolls, mac'n'cheese, collar greens, and jell-o. It was all so delicious!

While we ate we watched Mo'Nique's independent comedy DVD where she performed at a women's prison. It's called 'I Coulda Been Your Cellmate!'. It stirred up so many emotions. The DVD started and ended with personal interviews with some of the inmates, which were pretty tough to watch. The whole thing really caught me off guard. If you ever get an opportunity to see it, check it out.

Today was so gorgeous. I experienced so many things that brought me joy..

1.) bought a new filter for my fishies, now they have fresh , clean water!
2.) helped my mom fix lunch
3.) shared lunch with my mom and step-dad
4.) spent time with an old friend at the dog park ( the dogs kept me smiling )
5.) started a new book
6.) listened to some old music and it sounded new
7.) started a project (we'll see if it works out..)
8.) made plans to be super productive tomorrow
9.) laughed
10.) enjoyed the incredible weather

I hope tomorrow is just as wonderful.

Old pictures.

( let me know if they remind you of anything... anything at all. )

Well, it's officially the

NEW YEAR.

Welcome 2009, so long 2008.

The past year has been challenging, beautiful, inspirational, painful, and perfect.

Looking back, I can honestly say I appreciate every experience I've had.

I have resolutions.. but I hesitate to list them here. Mostly because I want to do them for myself and no one else..

Mom, you know one of them.. keep asking how I'm doing with it!

I hope everyone had a wonderful New Years celebration.

Mine was peaceful and refreshing.

P.S. EVERYONE SEE WALL-E!

"Consciousness will always be one degree above comprehensibility."

- Gösta Carl Henrik Ehrensvärd

I've had this longing to write lately and when I sit down in front of my computer, or with pen in hand, it's just blank. My mind seems to be filled with more emotion than thought. I wish this werenn't the case..

My eye's see such beauty that I truly long to express.

Why do I want to do this so badly? Why do I torture myself, sitting here with such high expectations.

I suppose once I was inspired by something I read.

My impact on the environment has become incredibly dissatisfying. My life is a process of consuming and creating waste. It's incredibly disgusting. I long to contribute rather than deplete. I've ignored the call of the fields to live the way my body is designed for, it is both a pleasant awakening and a guilty realization.

What did the world look like before our beloved 'industrial revolution' or the oh so beneficial first and SECOND 'green revolution'! Even now I am left speechless with the world I see, how magnificent was it BEFORE our 'biological footprint' was so massive.

The vocabulary is just a distraction. I've in fact even heard fellow students say that in order to 'all come together' and make a true shift away from destruction, we must first construct a common language in order to discuss the situation. The language is already within us! Close your eyes and you will know what to do.

It's been so long since I've closed mine.

The answers are there, and they are waiting to be revealed.

We don't need to create anything more. We are only destroying anyways. Create time and you will be given a beautiful creation. And if we must create... use what we have, buy nothing more. Take advantage of those who don't want to change and receive their trash with open arms.

No more pavement is needed.

The momentum is likely not to significantly slow, but why allow that to be an excuse.

One day I will be gone and I know that my body will be happy to return to where it came from.

I just hope I'm not considered pollution.

I hope it's as easy as it feels..